Mental Mine Field: Discharged from Therapy

Today I was discharged from therapy. I was actually a little said saying goodbye to my therapist for the last time as she really has helped. It's surprising the amount of difference a pleasant voice on the other end of the phone can make. I've been referred to some bereavement sessions through my GP which has been accepted but no more CBT.

Stacey is sending me a chart which marks my scores at the end of each session so I can see my improvement rate as well as some information to avoid relapses. The issue I have currently is that when I have a down day I think I'm going right back to the beginning again and I feel like I'm failing. The hard thing to remember is Everyone has down days. It doesn't mean you're failing, you're feeling and you deal with it. Anyone who says they're happy all the time is lying, they just deal with the downs.

Therapy and self-help were a good way to go. I have to admit, I can't help but judge people who admit they have problems and then don't do anything to help themselves. It's a fault in me, I don't know what they keep to themselves but it's how I feel. Getting help is the hardest part so once you do that then that obviously means the rest of healing isn't so bad.

I feel less of a need to update this currently, although I had a bit of a down time recently I feel more in control. I'm going to start considering reducing my meds gradually in the hopes to come off them completely.

Until then, pretty pictures!!