This morning I received a lot of info in the post from my Therapy lady. Her name is Stacey and she's a trainee wellbeing practitioner. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to instantly think she's adorable just because she's a trainee. She's probably older than me anyways.
Back to this info, there are a number of booklets I've yet to bring myself to go through but there was also a little card with a website and log in details. Ends up it's this online system with a load of ebooks and things on it, Stacey suggest I look into 'The Worry Box' this has a step system to help with anxiety. It has things such as planning out when you're going to deal with things and not thinking about them until the allocated time and date you've given them which is interesting. My favourite line so far is about being calm before bed to aid sleep "Do not read or watch tv in bed. Bed is for sleep and sex, that's all" I like books that remember that sex is great. And a good pick me up!
I'm going to try and pace myself through it and not feel as if I HAVE to do all of it instantly.
Quick day to day update. I am feeling slightly calmer over things still. I usually react fairly badly to plans being suddenly changed. Our plans changed radically for an upcoming convention and now I'm performing burlesque again. Usually that would have sent my brain into ARGH! ARGH! NO! TOO SOON! and I'm still slightly like that, kinda worried it may be shit but I do enjoy doing it and rarely get the opportunity. The last time I performed some of the audience didn't quite get it and I got some crappy comments like 'What a tacky, attention seeking whore' etc that's not why I do these things. I enjoy burlesque, it's taken me a long time to like my body so why shouldn't I enjoy it? I'm going to try and not let the possibility of more shit for it hold me back and just have a good time.
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